howyouremindme

will you wait for me

2007-02-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

Do You remember how it was when,
We never seemed to care?
Days went by so quickly,
'Cause I thought You'd always be there.

And it's hard to let You go,
Though I know that I must try.
I feel like I've been cheated,
'Cause We never said goodbye.

speechless

2007-02-03T13:43:00.000+08:00

speechless

hey there.
it's been quite awhile since i last updated.
it's already the second month of 2007.
time sure knows how to find its way around fast eh.

school has been pretty much the same.
projects all submittted. like finally.
whoo! but now, there's the main exams to worry about.
damn.

caught the flu bug two days ago.
felt kinda lousy on thursday but i still went for training.
i woke up on friday with very little energy in me.
thus, i didnt go to school. stayed home and did nothing.
had company to the doc in the afternoon.
followed by a visit from my partner during dinner.
she gave me desert. haha.
made my day so much better.
thanks alot.

I love my oh-so-HOT partner.
haha.

oh wells.
nothing else to add. till next time.

only heaven knows

2007-01-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

jack jack jack

there's been quite a number of things happening lately,
but it's only the start of the year.

oh boy, i wonder how the rest of the year will be.
i shan't elaborate on the happening happenings.
i know it will keep going on and on and on.

oh! i had a close encounter with death a few days back.
really saw white lights and stuff. damn scary.
i've been living in this house for roughly 12 years.
i should know the house at the back of my hands, but i realised that i don't.
walked in the darkness. felt my way around. the next thing i knew, i heard a loud bang.
no, it wasn't the neighbours' door banging.
no, it wasn't my sister arguing with my maid.
yes, it was me. i hit literally hit my head into the wall.
my face was kinda swollen for a day. it's better now. hurts at times though.
moving on.

on a more recent note.
i wanted to make a bet with glad that it would rain today.
she bet 5 bucks it wouldn't rain.
but i kept insisting that it would.
in the end we just decided to carry on with lunch.
headed to class after lunch. a few mintues later,
IT RAINED!
omg. i wanted to kill myself.
i could've gotten 5 bucks just like that.
rah.

oh wells.
i've been looking forward to trainings. but it keeps raining!
i think today was the only day it didn't rain and we actually managed to use our rackets to hit the balls. whooppeee.

netballers had training onthe other court today,
told rachel i would give her a dollar if she could purposely hit the ball into their court.
obviously she said no.
but little did she know that me and glad had the ability to psycho her mind to hit the ball over.
HAHA.
she REALLY did hit the ball over. but it was an accident.
oh man. damn funny please.

think i'm so damn unfit.
i keep feeling that pyhsical was so damn tiring.
but i do remember doing much more before.
my butt cramped so many times just now.
right now, i'm just afraid that i won't be able to walk properly tmr.
-ouch-

i'll blog again some other time, or not.

happy new year!

2007-01-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

here's a shout out to everyone.
happy happy new year.

put all the troubles and worries behind
move on to a fresh start with a brand new year.
after all that's been said and done,
think it's only right to start the year without having any excess bagguages on our shoulders.

2007 has a nice jig to it.
i hope it'll be a good year.
of course i do hope that i'm still able to experience what life has to offer me
throughout the year. but hopefully, more happiness and less sorrows.
that's all i ask for.

the fireworks werent as spectacular as they made it sound to be but i have to admit that since it was my first time watching the fireworks on new year's eve, it was pretty amazing. ironic eh. haha.
usual company. thanks guys!

looking forward to the last two days of the hols.
even though i still dread school,
i will make it a point to try and love it more and more
so that i won't dread it. make sense?
in simplier terms, i will be more hardworking when the new term begins. oh. it includes trainings.
i promise.

wells, thanks to all those who've been with me and stuck with me in 2006.
i appreciate it. you guys know who you are.
i'm glad to say that you'll still have to be stuck with me for this coming year 2007.
haha. say you're happy! lol.

guess that's all i have to say,
before i go.
have a very wonderful and blessed new year to you folks.

youendedmyyearwithhappinessandmuchmuchmorethatwordscantexpress.
willyoustartmyyearwiththesamehappinesthatyougaveme?
iknowyoufeelitisntmuchbutitsenoughforme.imcontented.
thankslove=)

back/nostalgia

2006-12-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

i'm back.

i didnt wanna blog until next year but what the heck.

firstly, let me start by talking about my holiday.

Day 1
took a midnight flight to incheon airport.
reached early in the morning.
headed to everland themepark.
i was so shagged from the plane ride, i really didnt have any mood to take the rides.
then it was dinner.
back to the hotel.

Day 2
woke up early in the morning to ski.
omg. i was still tired from the day before.
again, i didnt feel like doing anything. much less ski.
but the minute my feet touched the skis and ice.
i felt a rush of energy and ski-ed happily.
lunched.
then we went somewhere.
i can't remember.
haha.

Day 3
i think we went to some kim chi making thing.
then to lotte world.
the queue was so damn long.
the longest queue was 2 hours.
so in the end, we sat all those lousy rides.
wasted time but enjoyable nonetheless.

Day 4
wasted time in the ginseng place.
no one bought anything.
the tour guides' face was uber black.
haha.
broke away from the group.
headed to shopping ares on our own.
bought loads of stuff. very accomplished.
headed back to the hotel after that.
it had a casino in it. i tried to sneak in ( legal age is 19) and i managed to get in.
played the big/small game. fun experience.

Day5
took a domestic plane to jeju island.
had to spend christmas eve and day there.
i dreaded it.
we found this guy selling fireworks and bought some from him.
played fireworks that night.
went back to the hotel for drinks.
went to the store to get beer.
ultimately, i drank alot. i wonder why.

Day 6
went for some sightseeing on the island.
it wasn't very fantastic but passable.
that night, we asked another family to play fireworks with us.
bought like 30 dollars worth.
it was a spectacular sight.
had loads of fun.

Day 7
i can safely say we spent this entire day sitting, eating and flying.
took the domestic back to the city. headed for lunch.
then to the airport for out international flight.
ate again while waiting for the flight.
sat in the plane for 6 hours.
sighs.
then it was home sweet home.

now,
there's just this nostalgic feeling inside.
argh. please go away.

the new year is coming.
i hope it's a good one.

I shouldnt love you but I want to
I just cant turn away
I shouldnt see you but I cant move
I cant look away
And I dont know how to be fine when Im not
Cause I dont know how to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And I cant help it
I wont sit around, I cant let him win now
Thought you should know
Ive tried my best to let go of you
But I dont want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Its getting hard to be around you
Theres so much I cant say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way.

willitlast?

2006-12-18T23:07:00.001+08:00

hey there!

mid-sem tests just fly by. i didn't even know it did.
oh wells.
i can't say that i'll do very well for them though.

this few weeks have been pretty interesting.
i never thought that all this would happen. it still amazes me how things
have become the way they are now. hmmm.
life seems quite different now. haha.

moving on,
been going out these few days since the mid-sem ended.
friday, saw me out with rachel and eleanor going out to suntec,marina and the city hall area.
bought loads of stuff. i felt like santa. haha.
met lou in the evening for dinner.
accompanied rachel at esplanade.
the cab line was really long so i booked a cab home.

didn't do much on saturday.
practically slept the whole entire day.
how eventful.

sunday was another boring day.
i wonder why eh? haha.
went for a sac tennis chalet with the old girls.
i don't wanna talk about that. read glad's blog for details.

today, headed to vivo with glad.
i dont have many comments about the place.
walkedwalkedwalkedwalked.
met christabel, headed to city hall to meet rachel.
went for gc class gathering.
it was quite fun. at least the people were fun.

rachel's staying tonight.
i think we can have an emo night. hurr.

alright world.
i'm flying off tmr.
maybe i'll blog again when i get back.
if not,
here's an advance.

merry christmas
and
happy new year.

iwonderhowyoudoit.
knockmeoffmyfeet.
canihaveyouthischristmas?

sam

2006-12-08T22:34:00.000+08:00

Complicated.
What is there to do?
What is there to say?
I know I can't have you
But still I give my heart away.

Even though I met you
Just a few days before.
I have learned so much of who you are
And want to know you even more.

one way ticket baby!

2006-12-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

the week has been going by pretty fast.
oh boy, and mid-sem's next week.

i guess before i can say 'christmas' it will zoom right by.
sigh.
what an eventful year it has been.
okay, i'm sorry if all my posts seem so sad and stuff but i guess
i'm always like that when it's this time of the year.

till next time then.

I hope you find whatever you've been lookin' for.
Just remember where you're from and who you are,
'Cause there's a thousand lights that'll make you feel brand new,
But if you ever lose your way, I'll be right here for you.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.
So, come back and you sit down. Relax.
Everything's to see that you've come a long, long way,
And it's the place that you should be.

*uck this

2006-12-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

have you ever had the feeling or losing something?
what did it feel like?
i'm sure it wasn't great but did you kill yourself over it?
did you make such a big fuss as if the whole world owes you a living?

well, a member of my family did.
it wasn't a pretty sight.
55 bucks was lost today.
hmmm, it might mean alot to some but insignificant to others.
why make yourself feel so miserable about it?
why make everyone feel like crap for the whole entire day?
it's not like we made you lose the money.
but yet, you put the blame on us.
now every little thing is our fault.
ya thanks.
i have enough to handle.
i don't need this from you.
the family doesnt need it either.

thanks for the watch.
even though i'm not quite sure who bought it for me now.

happy bitrthday yuan ting.
=)

new chance maybe?

2006-12-01T11:15:00.000+08:00

hey there!

my blog is dying.
there's no point in updating.
then again, i have alot to say which is left unsaid because i'm too lazy to type it down.
what am i talking about?
god, somebody save me.

alrights. i dont really wanna talk about yiling's party.
you can read it from her blog or glad's one. it's roughly the same.

on another note, christmas is coming!
i like christmas, it just makes me happy for some reason. i dunno why either.
but i won't be here. that's just sad la. i wanna spend christmas here.
hmmm. i will refuse to get on that plane. haha.

the year is about to end soon.
boy, time flies. another year is gonna be over.
it felt like just yesterday that we graduated from sac.
sighs.

wait,
mid-sem tests is coming.
drats. time to study study.

I don't know what to say.
i'm out.

How do You do it?
Make Me feel like I do.

parttttyyyy

2006-11-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

shagged.

it's over

2006-11-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

my lovely partner wants an update.

well, to start off
the tournaments been over for a week now.
still have some adjustments to do for me to resume living normally again.
it still kinda feels weird to wake up and go to school not carrying my tennis stuff.
the closure was on monday during the prize presentation.
let me repeat this.
TP girls team bagged the gold medal and the trophy. whee.
our smiles were plastered on our faces the whole entire night.
it was damn fun.
couldnt kfc cause it was late.

tuesday was a long and tiring day.
but it ended off great with kfc, gelare and a damn long confession.

moving on,
school is still a bore and i'm really dreading it.
no more tennis means making school even worse than it already is.
how i hate it.

there's a friendly agianst SAJC next thurs during training time.
i really wanna play again man.
i dont wanna be unfit.
cause i know i'd die when it's time for tough physicals again.

the pictures were supposed to be at the bottom but i cant seem to put it at the bottom.
i'm an idiot at this.
oh wells.

many things were said tonight.
getting annoyed and agitated wont help solve anything.
there's only so much we can say to you.
the rest is up to you.
think abt it this way, we wouldnt have bothered at all if we didnt care.
hope you really realise what is it that needs change and change it fast.

POL-ITE games

2006-11-09T00:30:00.000+08:00

i'm officially dedicating this post to all the tp tennis people.
good job guys!

it's finally over.
after intense few weeks, several heart attacks and many many lectures by coach.
the tp tennis team girls emerged first in this year's POL-ITE games.
i've got to admit that this is the happiest i've been the whole entire year.
WELL DONE!

here's the results for all my doubles matches.

RP
7-9

ITE
9-0

SP
9-2

NYP
9-8(7-2)

NP
9-8(7-4)

the only let down for me is the rp match but it's over and i'm still happy.
we all learn from our mistakes.

today's match against np was the fight for 1st or 2nd place.
we won one singles and one doubles.
hence, the 3rd singles was the deciding factor for the girls.
man, it was one intense match.
everybody focused their attention on the match and there was utter silence. it really felt like they were playing wimbledon. haha.
in the end, we won the last singles that made TP champions!
Whee.

on a funnier note,
there were alot of 'sihuis' and 'felicias' displayed for most matches.
HAHA.
funny shite.

i'm sooo looking forward to the prize presentation on monday.
can't wait to feel gold! haha.

`hey partner, great job. i know it sounds damn cliche la. but i still have to say it. haha. guess i wouldnt have been able to survive the mental and phyiscal torture without you. from the time we were put together to work as a pair to all the matches that we played, i'm so very grateful that i have you as my partner. damn happy that we managed to win most of our matches too. thanks for listening to my advice and i appreciate you telling me what i did wrong too. we worked well. haha. kfckfckfckfckfckfckfckfckfc. i cant wait. haha.
=)

`girls team,
please tell me you all know what 'sihuis' and 'felicias' i'm talking about alright. i think i shouted it damn loudly in my match. haha. well, i admire the wonderful team spirit we have in each other.
showed character as coach would put it. haha.
good job once again.

matches

2006-10-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

wahahahaaha. i guess she's okay with me putting her pic here.
she's my lovely doubles partner.
i think she looks like some korean actress in this pic. haha.

alright. we played rp on saturday. both doubles lost.
me and pearlyne were 7-9. while rach and ele were 8-9.
like how close was that?
sigh.
all singles won so we kinda got lucky and girls team won overall.
moving on,
we played ite today.
i gotta admit. it wasnt much of an experience but nonetheless we did learn something out of it.
score:9-0. woohoo!
hmmm, next match is on friday.

school

2006-10-24T22:28:00.001+08:00

school school school.
i dread it.

25th Oct-1800hrs
TP vs RP

30th Oct-1800hrs
TP vs ITE

3rd Nov-1800hrs
TP vs SP

6th Nov-1800hrs
TP vs NYP

8th Nov-1800hrs
TP vs NP

`i left my heart there.

school

2006-10-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

THE VIDEO

2006-10-14T02:47:00.000+08:00

HEY YOU!!!

finished the presentation today. fianlly, it's over!
now we're just left with the post-trip journal.
and then the whole entire global citizenship will be officially over.
how sad.

here's the video matt and will did.
i think it's quite touching. i almost cried watching it.

ho chi minh city

2006-10-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

goodbye ho chi minh city

i'm back.
it feels good to be home yet i don't really wanna be here.
i'm having the missing feeling and it really sucks.

monday
went to the airport to meet the class and take the flight to vietnam.
maybe after taking so many flights on SQ, all the other airlines seem to a far cry from them.
upon arrival, we took a short city tour on the bus to familarize ourselves with the surroundings of the city.
went for our first vietnamese dinner then to check in at the hotel.
tutorials followed.
crashed at rach's and bel's room before bed.

tuesday
rise and shine early in the morning.
headed for the vietnam national university.
we interacted with one another, it was a cutural and knowledge exchange session.
next was the war musuem.
i knew that the vietnam war was gruesome but i didnt realise that many innocent lives were lost. it was a real big eye opener.
cyclo tour around the city.
shopped at ben thanh market, i hate bargaining. plus, we were harassed by the people there. they were strong, they literally pulled you over to look at the stuff.
dinner.
tutorials.
crashed at their place again. before you say that i left my roommate alone, she was out with others. drinking and having fun. haha.

wednesday
long drive to the mekong delta where we boarded a boat to the small town of my tho.
the boat ride was kinda cool.
stopped at the various small islands and ate fruit, saw how coconut candy was made, drank honey tea and banana wine.
after lunch we took the boat back to the bus and headed back to the city where we went to another history musuem and caught the water puppet show.
then it was back the the hotel to get ready for the business forum.
i felt that the forum really made me think about how we as singaporeans would benefit or lose out when vietnam rises up to a thriving economy.-thinks hard-
tutorials.
headed out for supper at a coffee shop opposite.drank, ate and talked alot about the whole trip.

thursday
visited a few places,
vietnam singapore industrial park(vsip)
dutch lady factory
garment factory
i have to say that the lunch was the best throughout the entire trip.
headed to the orphanage.
i felt like i was back in thailand when i saw how underprivileged the kids there were as compared to kids here.
however, they were happy with the little that they had and led very happy lives.
didnt have mood for dinner, alot of us didnt.
tutorials again.

friday
cu chi tunnel was a 2 hour drive away.
i told rachel that we had to try to keep awake.
we entertained ourselves by hitting each other and telling lame jokes.
we were damn high. all of a sudden, i felt tired. before rachel could say anything else, i fell asleep and she was left alone to entertain herself. i think she slept too.
reached the tunnel, learnt about the guerellas and how a network of 200 km long underground dug-out was used in the war.
next was the caodaism temple.
it was a mixture of several rligions into one.
i have to say that today was the worse lunch throughout the trip.
bought dvds at saigon tax trade centre cause there was nothing else to buy.
dinner at the river cruise. it was enjoyable. we carried lanterns too. lol.
the last night was supposed to be the best but i guess some stuff's unpredictable and it had to happen, kinda ruined alot of plans. oh wells.

saturday
headed to the airport. walked around duty free.
had my last cup of vietnamese iced coffee and pho noodles.
flight was delayed by 30 minutes.
the take off and landing was horrible.
i think the whole plane heard rachel scream. how funny.

the experience was really enriching. we managed to step out of our comfort zone, and opened our eyes to bigger things.
it also taught me how to look after people. and to be more patient with others around me.
looking forward to the presentation day.
pics up soon.

ipod no more

2006-10-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

vietnam from the 2nd to the 7th!

whee.
pretty excited.

oh wells.
i dont really have much to say.
i just hope that everything will be the same again when i get back.

`hey, please stop being so stressed. i intend to dedicate this whole entry to you. so STOP being so stressed! i'm really fine. i'm not saying that it didnt mean anything to me. in fact, it did but what's done is done. we cant turn back time right? i'm sure nobody meant for it to happen.
cheer up!

`thanks for keeping me company that night. appreciate it. made me feel a ton better. and i wont PROLLY miss you. i WILL miss you. HAHA.

`hey you! thank you. i would say more but it'd be mushy and you're not mushy so yea. THANK YOU!

` here. your message. i dunno what to say. haha. okay, i'll remember to call you when i get back alrights? loves.

hope you guys know you you are.
alrights.
i'm gonna do some last min packing.
i'll blog when i get back.
ciao.

how do you talk to an angel?

2006-09-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

hey you.

i wrote a whole long entry and it disappeared.
damn it.
someone said it's a sign.
i doubt so,i'm gonna post it again.

i'm damn annoyed. i think it's an understatement to say that.
why are you being so mean?
can't you see the effort that we've put in?
the least you could do was to tell us where we went wrong and maybe we could make some changes to it so we wont get a big fat f for this.
you looked like you were a nice person.guess you disguised yourself really well.you managed to fool us all.maybe you should be an actress.
you like making people suffer eh? you dont seem to feel the least bit sorry for us.
i know you will never read this, i just needed to let it out.
i'm sooooo not looking forward to seeing you in vietnam.

alrights.i just had to say that.
on a lighter note.
review of the week.

monday
i dragged rachel to the clinic at my place to take the flu jab.
the needle looked so small and harmless but it hurt my arm, the pain went to my bones then to my head, finally to my entire body. okay i was exaggerating. only my arm hurt.
i didn't scream. i yelped. there's a difference.
went home, did nothing.
met glad for coffee.
home.

tuesday
woke up feeling horrible. the bloody flu jab was so painful that i couldnt turn to my left the whole night.
went to meet rachel. i felt so paraniod on the bus. i kept thinking that someone was gonna accidently hit me on my arm and i would die on the spot cause of the pain. tell me about being paranoid man.
the jab let me feeling feverish and weak all over.sigh.

wednesday
headed to school in the morning for the darn gc thing again.
it was so boring. we did nothing. left early, headed down to tanjong pagar for physio.
my back hurts. it already did but she made it worse.
seriously, she told coach that i can't serve or run. then how to play tennis?
sigh.
walked aroung town with rachel and coach.
headed back to tamp to meet kel and bel,(ehhhhhhh,your names match.HAHA.).
they told me stuff. that's why i became so annoyed.
talked for awhile, then i went for cell.
when we were at this coffee shop having dinner, i saw her!
yesyes, the most hated her person in the world. okay, maybe not the world. just a few of us in tv02.haha.
come on man, tell me what a coincidence it is. i hid from her. hopefully she didnt see me.

today
went to glad's place to mj.
headed for training.
didn't do much.
i felt crippled. i couldn't do so many things la.
there's a need for my back to get better. and it needs to happen fast.

going for physio again tmr, together with the rachel,glad,ele and cheryl.
let's see how the day goes.
how do you talk to an angel?

`HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY! =)

everyday i love you

2006-09-23T02:39:00.000+08:00

you did nothing wrong.
yes i did, and i would do it all over again.

the words are still from the movie imagine me and you.sigh.
sweetsweetsweet.

journals and projects are done!
oh my.i'm so happy.
we still gotta learn how to bang dustbins and slam poles onto the ground.
reminds me of how mr quah used to make fun of pb people.
and know,i have to learn it.damn!
it reminds me of you.
had rehearsals again on thurday.half of the class met for breakfast first.so united eh?haha.
i think i'm quite bad with rythum.i hit my toes twice the the dumb pole.i hate doing stomp.
slacked until training.my back was seriously killing me, so i couldn't really train.
a visit to my physio needs to be arranged very soon.i'm in pain.

didn't do very much today.went all the way to town just to get two shirts that coast 10bucks.
dined at siglap cartel where sherilyn,michelle and felicia were working.it was nice seeing them.haha.walked all the way to east coast park from siglap.the pubs and bars there are quite cool.think i'll hang there some time.

kayaking tmr morning.i need a tan badly.
i hope my back doesnt break.

imagine me and you

2006-09-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

there are two reasons why i cant get to sleep.
first of all,the gc project and journals.i have to make so many changes.damn.
secondly,the movie imagine me and you is stuck in my head.

you can put an end to this.
how?
tell me to go,tell me that's what you want and i will walk away and you will never see me again.
is that what you want?
i want you.

don't forget me.
i won't remember anything else.

omg.the show is so sweet.sigh.
i just had to say that.alrights.
i have alot of journals to do.

out.

160906

2006-09-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

hello world.
i miss you.i do.
just got back from dinner at thai express with merv,coach and keong.
it was a very interesting dinner.haha.
here's an example.
we were talking about the advance tournamen coming up.
coach: when's the closing date?
merv:WHAT?! what did you say?
coach:when's the closing date?
merv:oh. i thought you said, do you have a frozen *ick.
me and keong were like wth!
haha.
oh wells. it was damn funny.that was only one of the many times we heard each other say wrong stuff.
before that i went to merv's place to mj together with sim and glad.
while waiting for the late birds i did my gc journals while merv just played warcraft.childish.haha.i think he'll kill me for saying that.lol.
i just stared at my lap top.i didnt have a clue as to what to write.

after mj, we headed down to kallang to help out at his cousin's store.it was fun cause i never really had an opportunity to mend a store.haha.
however i really couldnt count.i took a really long time to count how much to return people.man,i felt dumb.
maybe that's why i need to take accounts again.
thursday's lecture for gc was about diversity.
i kinda forgot what's the main point of it.thank god i finished my journal for that.
watched blue crush with rach in the library before training.
it's hot stuff man.haha.
i fell during training.my leg has an ugly bruise now.eeeeeeeew.
why cant you see baby, i wish it was only you and me.
friday's leture was on sustainable development.
i didnt quite agree with whatever mr jeff was thinking.i guess i was just there cause i had to be there.it was the first lecture that i wrote notes for, and i dont even know why i did that.
rachel thinks it's cause i'm getting used to waking up early.haha.
come to think of it,i think i'll miss waking up early to go to school next week.
but we still need to go back to school to rehearse.oh wells.
was so tired.i came home and crashed.

whoo hoo!
i cant wait to go to vietnam!lol.

`it's not that we dont wanna talk to you or try to understand your situation.but i really think you should look at things from our point of view and not only his and yours'.i will talk to you soon.we are not different.we do have things in common.that's why we became close in the first place.and i thanks you for accepting us for who we are.i guess i just gotta get used to the fact that you choose relationships over friendships.

museum

2006-09-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

it's been a good few days.
in my last post i wrote that my parents went for a cruise.
now,they're back.time flies man.
i didnt really take full advantage of it though.
execpt for that overnight mahjong session that we had.

monday was the first lesson for GC.
we learnt globalisation.
i was seriously trying to keep my eyes open.my brain wasnt even functioning.
during tutorial,i got to know my groupmates.they are quite okay people.
i bet rachel is happy with her group though.haha.
lunch followed.
we met again after lunch,had some discussion on what to do in the orphanage.
again,i had to keep myself awake.tiring man.
got a call from merv.went for some leadership talk.we felt so out of place because everyone else had a post and we were just there to show face.oh wells.

tuesday was the second lesson.
we stepped into the LT at 905am.it was only 5 minutes and our teacher gave us a lousy L.
what was the L supposed to be?i know it means late but she didnt even tell us.she just wrote it there.
we learnt interdependence.
what?!?!?!
yea i know.tell me about it.
i didnt understand why we had to learn that.
plus,we have to do a 250 words reflection on the topic every single day.tell me how sucky that is.
had training after that.boy was it tiring.it felt good to hit the balls after so long.

i woke up with my whole body aching.serves me right for not going the previous week.
wednesday was the third lesson.duh.
today we didnt really have any lecture.
the travel agency gave us a briefing on what we were to expect from the trip and all.blah blah blah.yup.
a trip to the asian civilisation museum happened in the afternoon.
i know museums are supposed to be quite interesting but this museum was not.it was so boring and tiring.i felt as though my body was gonna collapse on me anytime.
headed back to tamp with rachel and jonathan lookalike,haha.
the journey was so hilarious.dined with my cell.
home.

i want to check my results but the system is down.guess i have to wait till later or tmr.heh.
i think i will crash the minute i hit my bed.BUT i have yet to do my reflection.a whole three days of reflection.how?
i need to get started.

two more days of lessons.yay!

`yesyes.thank you for the slap.i will try to stop thinking that everything's about me.
`if you didnt realise.i'm quite annoyed with you.maybe i'm just not me these few days but cant you see that you're making a mountain out of a molehill.i really wanna tell you straight in your face the situation right now.but you just dont seem to get it.i'm telling you honestly that,yes,since your relationship is different.you are to get different treatment.we tried to accomodate you.so why cant you accomodate us?this is not even supposed to be my problem.
think about it.

110906

2006-09-11T07:08:00.001+08:00

maybe it was all wishing thinking to begin with.
so it's 703am monday morning.
didnt catch a wink the whole night.
are you really not gonna talk to me ever?
my parents left for a cruise.oh how romantic.
decided to get some friends over for overnight mahjong and just hanging out i guess.
i wasnt supposed to play actually.i didnt want to but mervyn had to leave so i took over.
aye,so we played 3 rounds from 10pm sunday night to 645am monday morning.
it was kinda interesting.everyone was not tired.
but right now, as i am typing this entry sim is on my favourite couch laid out dead.
glad is upright but i think she's in dreamland already.
ele is half watching the men's finals of the US open and sleeping.lol.
rachel's beside me half sleeping-half talking to her other half.tsktsk.
joel is sleepig like a log on the arm chair.
me,i'm very much awake.
i hope i am able to stay awake the whole entire day.well maybe at least for my classes later on.ha.
not even friends?
we never did really end anything.you just left me hanging.would you at least give me some closure?
i guess i have no life for a week.i have to head back to school for 9 hours from monday to friday.sigh.hopefully it'll be fun.

i went for the duck tours on saturday.
didnt go on the balloon though.they were afraid of heights.oh wells.
i discovered alot of things i didnt know about singapore.haha.

i dont know what else to say.
maybe i'll blog later after gc classes.
p.s i realised it's sept 11.
god bless the souls who were taken 5 years ago.

bye.

hair is very important.

2006-09-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

i've made a new discovery today.

i've realised that hair is very important to everyone.
it makes you or breaks you.
can you imagine being bald?
no.i cant.hmmm.then again,you might never know what happens in future.

well,i went for a haircut today.
i think it looks rather weird.man.
it's too late for regrets now.according to sim,people will get used to it.
but that's not the point.the point is i have to live like this.
argh.
nvm.it was my choice.
i've gotta live with it.bleah.

on a better note,
i'm really looking forward to tmr.
playing mahjong.and....=)
alrights.tt's all for now.

i'll be back!

cherie amour

2006-09-03T00:53:00.001+08:00

My Cherie Amour

hellohellohello.

let's see how my saturday went,
i didnt manage to sleep on friday night.hmmm.i wonder why.
slept at 530 in the morning.woke up at 830.
i seriously think there's something wrong with me.

met glad at 130 then we headed down to sac together for the agm.
i felt damn tired throughout the day man.
well,it was fun to see canossians young(2005) to the oldest(1947).
ha.

moving along.
we went to eastpoint for coffee and some gta.
i had to go home to get ready for a dinner event.
dined with my family at the grand shanghai.
the food was not bad.the company was alright too.
i felt like i was in shanghai.lol.

we adjourned to copthorne hotel for some drinks.it was gentlemen's night.
the guys ordered alot.i just drank.haha.
plus,the music was really soothing and emo at the same time.haha.
and now,i'm home.

that's all.

La la la la la la La la la la la la
My Cherie Amour, lovely as a summer's day
My Cherie Amour, distant as the Milky Way
My Cherie Amour, pretty little one that I adore
You're the only girl my heart beats for
How I wish that you were mine
In a cafe or sometimes on a crowded street
I've been near you, but you never notice me
My Cherie Amour, won't you tell me how could you ignore
That behind that little smile I wore
How I wish that you were mine

ain't the song familier?haha.-MY cherie amour.

cherie amour

2006-09-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

happyhappy

2006-09-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

this never happended before.

heyheyhey!

i think i've left this blog to die long enough.
alrights.let's begin with before the exams.
oh how exciting.

well,basically i spent the whole study week kinda studying?
monday-
went to adidas to try on tournament shorts.
lunch at carl's junior.headed to chinatown to get glad's wax and this ulu part of sg.
i was freaked.

tuesday-
studied at home.but it was damn hot so i went to the airport with lou-lin to study instead.

wednesday-
went to school to hand up my gc deposit.it felt so pain to part with $400 bucks.
i still have to pay another $315.ouch!
airport to study again.

thursday-
airport with glad to study.
she was late like over an hour.thus i had a lonely lunch.
oh wells.

friday-
glad was late.again.
we had lunch at mac's.glad ordered a filet meal without sauce.the burger came without the sauce and the cheese.she didnt wanna complain so i had to do the dirty job.
told the staff tt i wanted cheese on the burger.she asked me to take a seat and she'll deliver.
but when the burger came.there was the sauce and the cheese.omg.i had to tell them again.i felt like such a bad guy.but finally,it came with the right things in it.haha.
i stayed out the whole night with lou.damn shagged.

saturday-
eastpoint to study with glad,yiling and pamela.
headed to 85 for dinner.we had a very funny dinner.haha.

sunday-
studied with lou at the airport after lunch at aunt's place.
she left at around 11pm.i stayed on to pick my mom up from her hongkong trip.
that was about 1am.
almost couldnt wake up for my paper the next day.

as you can see,the entire week was spent on studying.
that was how it was supposed to be anyway.haha.

exam week.
monday-
pom paper.
was a lil depressed after that.so i went home to study csa by myself.

tuesday-
csa paper.
i kinda like csa cause it's easy to understand compared to the others.
hopefully i'll do okay.

wednesday-
microeconomics paper.
no comments.

thursday-
business accounting 1 paper.
if i dont fail the paper.it'll be a miracle.
sigh.
mahjong-ed at my place with glad,cheryl and sim.
all of us went mad la.it was hilarious.
went to tamp starbucks for coffee and some other company.lol
my dear friend left me to head for parkway alone.
i was starving man.but i was nice and waited for someone to eat with me.
i tell you,i was so hungry that i wasnt hungry anymore.so i didnt eat.
took a long route home.but i enjoyed every minute of it.haha.

friday-
i woke up feeling very very hungry.
sis and i met mom and dad in town to have lunch.
billy bombers service at the heeren in bad man.
i shall never go there again.i really wanted to kick up a fuss.parents were laughin at me cause they think i sound like mom.oh wells.
headed home with dad first cause i so did not wanna walk around town.
tried sleeping but i couldnt.
met glad and yiling to watch the devil wears prada.
it was super funny.we were the only ones laughin super loudly in the theatre.haha.
and now i'm back.

we're heading for sac's agm tmr.with all the old girls and stuff.whoa.
i feel old man.haha.

alrights.i'll blog again very soon.

i enjoyed our conversations to and from parkway.although the bus fare was expensive.it was well worth it!and dont worry,i'll protect you from you-know-who.haha.=)

last

2006-08-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

save me.

i read someone's blog about the movie click and the universal remote control.
which made me think.
how i wish i could have the universal remote control too.

then i could change time.rewind the clock and make things better.
maybe then i would be a different person.
maybe even a happier person.
oh wells.
i dont know.

fact of the matter is that i can't change time.
i can't change things.
what's done is done.
if we all could change things then the word 'regret' wouldn't exist.

funny.
once you lose something that you took for granted you long to have it back.
but when you realise you can't ever get it back then you start to regret.
the feeling totally sucks.well,you should move on and learn form your mistakes.
easier said than done.but what if you never learn?you make the same mistakes over and over again?

there was so much said and un-said.
things became so tangled up and it's hard to get them all untangled now.
i wanna start things over again.
but i dont know how.
i dont know if i still want to.
all i know is that you're able to make my heart skip a beat, put a smile on my face
and assure me that everything's gonna be alright.

you don't know how much you mean to me.
i guess you'll never know.

Remember we'd be up all night
Talking 'til the morning light
Like the way it used to be
Those simple days
Just you and me
Remember we used to laugh and say
No one understood our way
And there were times
When you would cry
and come knocking
On my door , I was there
To shelter your pain

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done
Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you.

you leave me disorientated.

fireworks.

2006-08-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

i dont have much to say.
everything's like almost the same as glad.
go read her blog.

i must say that the one she said abt our conversation wasnt approved by me.
tsktsk.
oh wells.

the party was alright.
food and people were great.

fireworks were amazing.
it jus misses something.
sigh.
it was the weirdest company man.haha.
it was a sleepless night for me.thoughts were flooding my head.

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn,don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart
It's ruining everything
I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you
But I'm missing you
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger, ah
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger
Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you
But I'm missing you

click

2006-08-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

alrights.so national day is over.
i didnt even watch the parade.dumb.

went out with pamela to celebrate her birthday.and i realised how much i miss her.haha.
oh.i so did not say that.lol.
went to my cousin's place to sorta 'celebrate' but guess it was more like a gathering.
well.it had to be.i doubt we are that patriotic.ha.
the food and company were good.ate and drank alot.
it felt good to be high.there was alot going through my mind.the booze helped.

school was a total waste of time today.went for like an hour and a half.
ah wells.it shows good attendance that way.haha.
havent been to training this whole week.
i'm feeling crappy.

derru and cheryl's birthday celebation.
happy birthday in advance guys.

ciao.

Do I miss you, not that much
I stopped doing that a couple of months ago
And I was feeling so much better
I’m not sure now why you called
I didn’t think we’d speak this soon, if at all again
Since you left me in a letter
Now I hear your voice
And it goes on and on, on and on
You may have questions now
But I believe that you were wrong
All that I wanted was you
You never questioned then
That leaving me would be the end
All that I wanted was you
I used to think we had some room to run
But that was long before you ran away with someone else
Like my feelings didn’t matter
Now I’m stuck, as if you couldn’t tell
Between what I want and a past I know too well
And I’m inclined to choose the latter
You can’t even tell me why
Without walking in a lie
What do you want me to do?
Give it all another try?
Cross your fingers ‘til you die
I’ve already played the fool for you .

fop

2006-08-05T01:25:00.000+08:00

hellos?!
anybody here.
i think i should close this thing.just a thought.
oh wells.

back from festival of praise.
it was good.i like don moen.
oh man.i think i'm getting old.haha.

let's see.
training was a killer on thurs.
but could tahan la.
i felt crappy this morning.but better in the afternoon.

lou-aye,cheer up babes.i know you've got alot of stuff to think of.jus focus on what you think is important now k.things will work itself out.i'm sure.smile.=)

cassie-don't know if you'll read this but you gotta cheer up too.don't think abt that person for now.and i bet you're prettier than that friend.HAHA.cheers babe.=)

chantel-sec school stuff again ehs?cant wait to hear it.haha.cheer up.=)

coach-you are the funniest of the lot.please dont be so pissed just cause of starbucks.cant believe you're writing a 5 page letter to them.please dont leave them just after i'm gettin addicted.haha.

honey-thanks for the shirt again.made my day,if you know what i mean.i know you're not feeling very good.cheer up.loves.=)

whoa.this whole post is for people to cheer up.haha.intersting.
so please guys.just cheer up!rah.

national day's coming!
whee.

I'm very sure
This never happened to me before
I met you and now I'm sure
This never happened before
Now I see
This is the way it's supposed to be
I met you and now I see
This is the way it should be

first

2006-08-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

woohoo.
it's the start of a new month.
it's the start of something new.it feels so right to be here with you.
according to some people.i'm back dated.old fashioned.
oh whatever.

it's been quite an eventful few days.
oh.the previous entry i said i played tennis almost the whole week.
well i did.i forgot to mention that i ended up playing tennis on friday at tmcc's social night.
man.but i didnt play on saturday and sunday la.

played mahjong on saturday with glad,sim and coach.
it was hilarious.haha.
we had to write out the characters for coach to understand.haha.
ice-cubed after that.talked abtout alot of stuff.
i think i like serangoon.haha.
only got to know it cause rachel lives there.oh wells.

sunday was just a family day.but i slept for most of the day.
needed to recharge after going out for soo many days and nights.

went to watch lake house with rach yesterday.
i think it's a very romantic movie.
but since i already watched it,i fell asleep for one part.she didnt even realise la.dumb.

glad and i went back to sac today.
helped do mr quah's collage for his death anniversary.i think it's nice.cause we did it.ahaha.
trained with the sec 2s and 3s.i must say,it was quite interesting.haha.
lols.
and we went for tp training late.
it was quite fun to play the ladder.
lost to guys.felt sad.
good experience though.

I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over
No one knows my name
I'll get out of California
I'm tired of the weather
I think I'll get a lover
I'll fly them out to Spain
I think I'll go to Boston
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town to leave this all behind
I think I need a sun rise
I'm tired of the sun set
Here it's nice in the summer
Some snow would be nice
Ooo yea
You don't know me
And you don't even care

boos

2006-07-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

the days have been passing very fast.
i'm beginning to think that the year's gonna end soon.

these few days i feel like i'm turning pro.
tennis.tennis.and more tennis.
sat-hit in school
sun-tennis alumni friendly
mon-intermediate match against glad and ele
tues-training
wed-intermediate match against some irritants(they won btw)
thurs(tmr)-training.
tsktsk.it's been alot of hitting.but i'm loving it.

so coming back to the irritants who won,
they were only eleven.can you believe it?
no.i cant.i cant get over it.

funny thing happened after the match though.
told rachel not to call her parents yet so she could dinner with us first.
me:dont call your parents yet.if you do,they'll arrive in one second.
coach:okay la.dont so bad.make it two seconds.
rachel:wheyyyyyy...........

-all three stares at the car approaching and realises that it's rachel's parents.-
me:SHIT!
coach:(smiles and thinks that it is unbelievable)
-meanwhile,awkward silence fills the air as rachel's parents offered to give us a lift.-
a cab came out and saved us all from the awkwardness.

went to siglap to eat.
talked alot about how i could improve and stuff.
basically we talked alot.interesting stuff.

whee.tmr's thurs.i like thursdays.
for some reason.haha.

ciaos.

`honey-good job.although we lost.i'm still proud of you and i'm happy that you listened to me!haha.remember what i said on court.keep up the good work.=)

Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen'
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you .
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me feel
Like I could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

160706

2006-07-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

latest news.
the car broke down.
i think i felt the world crash down on me.
ok.i think that was too dramatic.

went for my sis's dance thing last night.
i think she was great.
the others were just mediocre.haha.

projects deadlines are drawing nearer and nearer.
i've gotta start being a good girl now.hee.

I look at you
Please don't walk away
I see you're about to
There is just something I'd really like to say
So please don't walk away
So should it matter
What I do or what I've done
As long as in my heart
You're still the only one
I hear you say it
But I don't think you understand
I can be trusted now, I swear to you I can
It's been a few months
a memory from my past
I know what I did wrong
I wish to change
Just to make it last
But I guess it's been too long
If you got to know me again
Maybe then -- maybe then
We could see what what we should do
But that's all up to you
I'll be waiting for you

100706

2006-07-10T19:06:00.000+08:00

alrights.
we lost.we got two eggs.rah.
0-6,0-6.
badbad. but like i said.we lost that's why nadal lost.haha.
but it was nice to see fireworks.haha.=)

next tournament's intermediate.
hope we do better.

080706

2006-07-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

"which part of fantasy is better? i mean, i'm sure they don't have hot and cute taxi drivers who drive cool silver cars in there right?"

that was part of my anti-depression conversation.haha.

sony ericsson open tomorrow. (i mean,today.look at the time.8th july.sat.)
wonder how i fare.
come cheer me on at 7pm at kallang!
haha.
rachel better play well.hee.

ecp

2006-06-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

hello world.
since i ended with camp,think it's only right to start with camp.

120606- 130606
first two days of camp was the worse of all.
i expected more.but i guess whatever we did was enough.
on the first night,most of us stayed up talking.
then we ended up telling ghost stories.
everyone was just so freaked out.guys had to escort girls to the toilet.damn funny.

140606
ohhhhhh.sentosa!
it was quite fun.just din like drinking the mocha thing.was damn gross pls.

150606-160606
training was quite slack.
stayed over at ele's place.omg.
her house is like a fortress.
we were all in awe.it looks like the house in the movie when a stranger calls.

170606-210606
Melbourne.
lovely weather.
wonderful company.
it was truely a trip worth remembering.

260606
went to ecp after sch.
i was being an ass before tt.i'm so sorry.you should know why.=(
it was....how should i say?interesting?haha.
great exercise.hot.yes.very.
we sat by a break water.
there was a chinese couple before us arguing.it was hilarious.
tried filming them.but the guy busted us.damn!
camera whored.

right.
imagine this scenario.
two people walking side by side.one is talking to you facing the other direction.
reason?
the wind was messing up her hair.wth.
vanity.
it was super funny,both of us ended up talking to each other facing the opposite direction.wth.haha.

p.s
i'm damn happy i can play for the team and go for GC.yay!
=)

should i wait?

camp

2006-06-11T23:28:00.000+08:00

yikes!
camp tomorrow.
haven't packed yet.

maybeyouwillneverknowcauseiwillneversayanything.
andit'sbreaking.

emptiness

2006-06-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

030606
it was a long day.played tennis for 6 hours.with breaks in between.
i won all my matches but my partner lost all.but no worries.i'm still proud of him.=)
cause without him,we wouldn't have won mervyn and rachel 6-0.haha.
our one and only win.hee.
felt very shagged after that day.
went to merv's place to study.
talked abt some stuff with candice.think she's good at seeing things.haha.

040606
first time in serangoons.
i almost got lost.haha.
studied till dinner.headed home.
i was surprised that it took me only 40 mins to get home.wow.

050606
microecnomics test at 11.
i think i'm not gonna do well.sigh.
i finally gave my forms to karthini.it took me a millions years to find her.
tried to get myself to like accounting the whole day.
business sch level 5.hee.

business accounting paper tmr.i hope it's not too tough.=/
looking forward to the friday.opening night.world cup.
and to hold my racket on sat.whee.
out.

Se fue, se fué, el perfume de sus cabellos,
Se fue, el murmullo de sus silencios,
Se fue, su sonrisa de fábula,
Se fue, la dulce miel que probé en sus labios.
Se fue, me quedó sólo su veneno,
Se fue, y mi amor se cubrió de hielo,
Se fue, y la vida con él se me fue,
Se fue, y desde entonces ya sólo tengo lágrimas.

2006-05-31T23:47:00.000+08:00

Can't you see
That I wanna be
There with open arms
It's empty tonight
And I'm all alone
Get me through this one

I want you to know that I miss you,
I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

hopman cup

2006-05-26T01:01:00.004+08:00

i love thursdays.
i get to sleep in.
plus.there's trainings.whee.

physio yesterday was not too bad.but i dunno why my back hurts so much today.
plus some commotion abt my pysiotherapist.haha.funny.
had some hit with jeremy during training.wow.i think he's great man.

we had selection for hopman cup.
got ryan.i think it'll be a good experience for the both of us.
hmmm.

ccn day tmr.
my class in not doing anythin because our ideas got rejected.ah wells.
jus buy stuff to support then.haha.
gonna get my new shoes tmr too.it's time man.
the weekends' here.i think time passes very fast.

mid-sem tests are coming.
haven't been seriously studying.
guess it's time i started.
have to go for the briefing for global citizenship on saturday morning.
hope it's fun.
that's all for now.
out.

I can't forget it all in just one day
Take some time to speak your mind
But say it's not over
Don't close the door on us this way
I'm so sure that there's much more
You just have to tell me
I said I'd be there until the end
Remember those fireside nights
It's not that long ago
You said you wanted to stay there forever
I gave you the strength of my hand
When things were running low
I didn't know you would go back on
What you said
There must be some reasons there
That you don't want to share
What is it that's changed in you.

over the hedge

2006-05-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

it was such a dull day today.
csa lecture was super boring.
left after 45 mins.had breakfast.
went for accounts at 11.
oh i'm so happy.i can finally understand accounts.whee.
somebody went out of sch and forgot all about me.
so i had to go home and wallow in misery.
slept.
went to sch to get rachel then headed to plaza sing to meet
coach and dave.we couldnt get da vinci code so jus resorted to over the hedge.
it was such a funny movie.tickled my funny bones.haha.and coach laughed so loud that allan from the other end of the theatre.haha.funny.
went for dinner at fish and co.
talked alot.especially abt the cut.
STRESS!haha.
i think the world is such a small place.(coach should know wad i mean.heh)
went home after that.
=)

You never gave us a chance to be.
And I don't need you
To be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you
To tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you.
I did enough
To show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had, had enough
And when I get close
You turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you
To tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you

150506=)

2006-05-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

Rachel's a pain in the butt.
haha.
nah.she's a nice fella.haha.
we think alike.haha.
and i know her dirty lil secret.haha.

glad found out a number of things today.
it's so interesting how this whole thing happened in the first place.
haha.
but i'm happy tt she knows so i wont feel so suffocated now.whee.
and i agree with glad that's it's so UNBELIEVABLE.haha.

well.training tmr.
hope all goes well.
my back.please recover.=(

`twin!sorry.i'll be careful next time.tell tm sorry too.=)

what's gonna happen?i dunno.

TEAM DINNER

2006-05-12T02:04:00.000+08:00

man.had a rather long day.
only a one hour break in between.
tiring.
training was alright.
stressed while playing a match with samantha though.
she was damn serious.
fierce.haha.

had team dinner after that.
it was pretty cool.i think the coffeshop people made alot of money.haha.
40plus people.with eating portions of abt 80.haha.
read glad's blog for the joke.

long weekend.oh.how i love it.whee.
that's about it.haha.

i'm gonna giv up.
soon.

090506

2006-05-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

my back is damn pain.i think i did something to it a few weeks ago.
so now i'm hurting.and i cannot train properly.it's a horrible feeling.
ouch.

every training.i have to stop at least once to rest.this is bad.
the cup is coming.
i need a miracle to cure this pain.rah.
plus.i hope i get someone nice for the competition.haha.

oh.i do not understand accounting.i need help.
i feel dumb.
it's a short week.looking forward to the weekend.
whee.

you don't see me the way i see you.
oh, you're just so special to me.
when will you understand?

280406

2006-04-28T23:55:00.003+08:00

yesterdays training was as tiring as tuesday's training.
there was trials,many people turned up.not all could play though.it was so funny.
it didnt take long for coach to recognise the players who could play and those who could not.
he chose like 6 girls and 10 guys?i think.not sure about the guys.but ya.
we did loads of physical.it was to a point where i didnt ache anymore.when so much physical is done,and your muscles are strecthed.they dont hurt as much as they did.oh well.
glad was going on about how pretty this new girl is when practically the whole team thinks otherwise.and how she looks like someone.haha.funny.

i didnt have lessons today because it was disrupted by a fire drill early in the morning.
half hour through the lesson,the alarm rang.
assembled in the basketball court in the blazing sun.stood there for another half hour.heh.
met derru,went to the library then i went to meet my class to get notes.
i went back to the library to meet him again.
decided to have lunch before he met coach for vjc against ajc.
(vjc won.duh.)

i on the other hand,cabbed home to sleep.replenished my tiredness.haha.
i didnt know my whole family would be home la.
oh well,my dad went for an operation so my mom decided to take the day off.
aat about 4,i left my house to meet glad and eleanor after their classes before going to shenna and kel's bday.
the 3 of us met the others before heading off.but we more or less jus sat there to talk and at the same time waited for kel to get home to giv him a huge surprise.hee.
went to shenna's thing.mingled around.
oh.and the chalet at the side had this huge commotion because they had guys posing as girls dancing and singing.haha.everyone was amused and disgusted at the same time.but i thought they looked quite good.haha.
we left at around 1030.too tired.
home.

I thought some time alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone
and I tried and found
out this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you I know better now
and I've had a change of heart
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.
I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,please be mine.

250406

2006-04-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

yay!!!
i didn't have to take the bus to sch by myself today.haha.
my uncle dropped me.but it's only for today.sigh.
lectures and tutorials were ok today.

we chilled at the library before training.haha.
when glad ended her lecture.
i accompanied her to get her new phone.haha.
i tell you.we walked the whole of tampines to get the best price.
wth.haha.
the best price was 308 for the new set.
she got it and we cabbed to sch for trg.like an hour late.haha.
fashionably late.lol.

oh man.
training was horrible today.
physical was like torture.
think we're all gonna ache tmr.sigh.

alrights.enough.shall be back tmr.
p.s merv's sending me to sch tmr.whee.

Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will.
For you I will.
That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try.

240406

2006-04-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

back.
first of all.orientation was ok.
i mean i was hardly there.so i wouldnt know.haha.
my class people were quite friendly but me,(being me)
was unable to interact with people as easily as they could.
they felt that i was really cold.haha.oh well.
at least i know that now.

hmmm.it's officially the first day of sch today.
guess wad?i was late.
late on the first day.yea bad.
but the bus took 10 years.oh well.
lecturer din say much.
he was nice enough to understand that it's the first day of sch.haha.
lecture on microecons was supposed to last for 2 hours.but she finished it in less than an hour and a half.so we were let off at 1030.whee.
bought notes with my class.then had lunch wit them.din exactly eat but we chatted.it was cool.

went to settle ez-link card and debit card with lou at pasir ris.
came home.slept.
dinner.
i'm so not looking forward to getting squashed in the bus tmr morn.sigh.
till next time.

The face of an angel
Pretty eyes that shine
I lie awake at night
Wishing you were mine
I'm standing here holding
The biggest heartache in town
Whenever you come around
I feel so helpless
What is it about you
That makes me keep my feelings hid
I wish I could tell you
But the words can't be found .

my last day

2006-04-19T23:25:00.001+08:00

ok.i'm here to update because my lady ann-marie wants it updated.
what a bother.
she can be such a pain in the butt although she's like halfway across the world.
(i think she'll kill me after reading this.)haha.

my pain in the butt friend from halfway across the world did knock some sense into me recently.
if anything happens or whatsoever.you will be the first to know k.haha.

re-cap of the past 3 days.
monday.
lunch and movie with lou,tiff,mel and lup.
dinner with glad,sherilyn,jehanne and catherine.
home.
tuesday.
mahjong.
training.
home.
wednesday.
slept practically half the day away.
went to church to do some admin stuff for PJ.
(see,i'm so nice.lol)
dinner with PJ.
cell.
home.
the events of the next two days.
thursday.
orientation.(hope it'll be fun)
training.
home.
friday.
orientation.
(shhhhhh.)

`I don't know why
But she's changed my mind.
Would you look at her
As she looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl.

2006-04-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

-How can I say thanks
For the things you have done for me
Things so undeserved
Yet You gave to prove your love for me
The voices of a million angels
Could not express my gratitude
All that I am and ever hope to be
I owe it all to thee
To God be the glory, to God be the glory
To God be the glory,
For the things He has done
With His blood He has saved me
With His power He has raised me
To God be the glory,
For the things He has done
Just let me live my life
And let it be pleasing Lord to thee
And should I gain any praise
Let it go to Calvary
With His blood He has saved me
With His power He has raised me
To God be the glory
For the things He has done.

yo!
what's up?haha.you know what?
it's kinda lame la but i want this song to be my funeral song.
yay!ok.dunno why i'm happy about my funeral.lol.
see ya folks!

`I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers
Never giving in
But baby since you’ve gone
I admit that I was wrong.
All I know is I’m lost without you
I’m not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever said we’ll never be together
and we ended with goodbye
Don’t know what I’d do
I’m lost without you.
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You’re the only thing that’s on my mind.

april fools

2006-04-02T00:20:00.000+08:00

010406

the gathering was quite humourous.actually i think so say humourous would be an understatement.lol.nevertheless,i wanna thank all the shine babes for making it so memorable.haha.
my mates were there too.the usual 5 who could play mahjong all day.haha.
glad they came.but the joke that they played on me really pulled off.i never expected it.
i really like the present.i think it's the best.thank you so much guys and a girl.haha.
i've learnt my lesson.never to invite people over on the 1st of april.lol.

it would've been better.
disappointed.really am.
Its been weeks
And for some reason i just
cant get over us.
So tired of tears,
So done with wishing you were still here.
Im so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory.
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be.
i find myself just fillin' my time,
anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
i'm doin' fine, i plan to keep it that way,
you can call me if you find you have somethin' to say.

she's out of my life

2006-03-28T23:43:00.001+08:00

yup.fio and glad are right.
i'm damn messed up.
deal with it man.

She's out of my life
I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life
She's out of my hands
To think for two months that she was here
And I took her for granted
I was so cavalier
Now the way that it stands
She's out of my hands
And so..So I've learned,
that love is no possession
And I've learned,
that love won't wait
Now I've learned,
love needs expression
But I've learned much too late
And she's out of my life
Damned indecision and cursed pride
Kept my love for her locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life.

`you'reallbutamemory

2006-03-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for the times you cried,
and the loneliness you felt inside.
I'm sorry for the way things were,
and the selfishness that you endured.
I'm sorry for the nights we lost,
and the deep pain it must have cost.
I'm sorry for the love you missed,
losing you helped me realize this.
I'm sorry I wasn't there to show,
the deepest love you'll ever know.
I'm sorry for the empty days,
and the stresses that you still yet pay.
I'm sorry for the way I left,
I've never felt so much regret.
I'm sorry for the heart I broke,
that shattered with the words I spoke.
I'm sorry for the empty space,
that laid beside you in my place.
I'm sorry for the empty arms,
you fell into when times were hard.
I'm sorry for the days that passed,
Our love now will surely last.
I'm sorry it took so long to vow,
to love you forever here and now.

manderin

2006-03-25T01:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Priscilla Koh!=)

I got down on my knees today,
And said a prayer for you,
For you are always in my heart,
And I often think of you,
I asked the Lord to send his angels,
To protect my dearest sister,
I prayed that all the joy and happiness,
You have will never end,
I asked the Lord to comfort you,
When you are feeling blue,
And when you have a tear,
He'll wipe away that too,
I asked the Lord to bless our sister-ship,
So our ways will never part,
For true sisters always stick together,
For we're in each others hearts.

I love ya babe.=)

To You Just Because....
You're Very Special to Me
I want this message to put a smile on your face.
I want it to remind you that you have been on my mind.
I want it to tell you that I think you're wonderful.
I want it to be a beautiful part of this day.
And I want it to help you remember -every time you remember it in the days yet to be - that this message was sent to you...
just becauseyou're very special to me.
I' m so so so so sorry.

ache

2006-03-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

wish I told her how I felt maybe she'd be here right now but,
insteadI pretend that I'm glad you went awayThese four walls are closin' more every day and I'm dying inside.
like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows.
Why didn't I saythe things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' downI can say it so clearly
but you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
and I just keep thinkin' 'bout the love that we had
and I'm missin' you.
nobody knows it but me.

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the dusty road
gonna find you where ever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope
you come back to me.

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye.

2006-03-23T00:34:00.000+08:00

hi! today (well yesterday more like) Patty and i went to watch Yours Mine and Ours at TM. yes, TM. of all the places in Singapore she wants to go to TM. anyway the movie was great but Patty thinks it's a stupid show. but dont listen to her ok. the movie is not stupid. and so are Nachos! i think Nachos are like the best snack ever. anyway Yours Mine and Ours is a GOOOOOOOOOOOD movie with a great meaning behind it. but Pat just doesnt know how to appreciate good movies. haha. oh did you know that she got scared watching Dorm? hahahahaha. and it's rated PG. tsk. anyway i am not done with this template because Miss Fussy here doesnt want her face there. she wants a Collage instead. so now i have to go wreck my brains to make a nice collage for her. im like so nice and sweet please. and i dont think she'll be like blogging until i finish this. so annoying right. haha. but shes sending me so many songs right now. so i cannot be angry with her yet. haha. ok. thanks for the songs babe! haha.

<3 nor (:

hellooooooooooooooos! (:

2006-03-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

hi this is nor. patrina has a new blog and i help created it since pat is like a html idiot. haha. anyway her blog is looking like shit. so i am helping to create a whole new look to it. what a bother. haha. okay kidding.